Waking suddenly from the nightmare was nearly as startling as a pre-dawn alarm clock. My bad dream was motivated by actual physical pain that transcended my unconscious mind; the result of sleeping in a weird position for too long a period of time.
I was in a hospital and just wanted to call my husband to come and get me, but I kept getting lost in the puzzle-like configuration of corridors. Whenever I found a phone, the numbers were all either broken or rearranged and out of order so when I dialed I kept getting a wrong number. As my pain worsened I became more panic stricken, feeling alone and abandoned — I just wanted to go home.
The pain finally broke through my dream-like state and I awoke with a pounding heart and much confusion. Coming through the fog of semi-wakefulness I got my bearings and rolled over to alleviate the pain in my back allowing me to relax and still my racing heart. Instinct kicked in prompting me to pray and ask for God’s peace. Thanks to a memorized “Go-To” Scripture the presence of the Holy Spirit settled upon me providing instant comfort in addition to insight as to what the dream symbolized.
I’ve been seeking God’s direction on something in my life since the beginning of the year; a classic either/or scenario. With mid-February upon us, I’m feeling forgotten by God and no closer to a resolution than I was nearly six weeks ago. I’m feeling lost, confused and somewhat abandoned by God. I just want a definitive answer one way or the other — but clearly my dream was showing me that I’m anxious and fear God has forgotten me altogether.
It’s recorded in Scripture that God frequently spoke to people through dreams. I’ve been blessed to receive specific insight through dreams in the past and I frequently pray and ask God to speak to me in my dreams. For me – it would seem as though being unconscious makes it easier to hear God rather than in the full light of day. (Perhaps because when I’m asleep, I’m not arguing with God!)
While God did not give me an exact answer to my either/or situation through the dream — the dream encouraged me that God hasn’t forgotten me and He’s heard my prayers. I was further encouraged that God’s not abandoned me when I opened my daily devotional “Jesus Calling” for that day and read the very first line: “I AM WITH YOU AND FOR YOU. You face nothing alone – nothing!”
Coincidence? Perhaps — but I choose to believe that God was speaking to me through my dream, through Scripture and through my daily devotional. “And be sure of this: I am with you always, even to the end of the age.” (Matthew 28:20 NLT)
God speaks to us individually in ways that only we will understand — be it through Scriptures, music, television, friends or even dreams … God is always speaking. Are you listening?
Blessings in Christ,