I am a schedules girl. With four kids at home I thrive on a daily routine.
Well… my routine has basically been thrown up into the air and for the last three weeks or so I’ve been catching the pieces as they float back down to the earth like confetti in some sort of bizarre parade that has been moving forward very… slowly… nothing worse than a parade that doesn’t move.
This week my three elementary school kids started a more formal home learning with their teachers at school online so now what I had pieced together as a routine has once again been changed.
Change has never really been my forte. Growing up in a constantly changing household- not really knowing what was going to happen next- has made me a fastidious adult. I like my routines- they give me a sense of safety, security, and control.
My reality these days is the harsh fact that in this world -and in my life- safety, security and control does not lie in my own hands. Even though I create these rhythms and routines to lead a balanced life and function well, at any time, they can go away (as I am experiencing now).
The silver lining for me has been my faith. To be honest it’s been really hard to focus on reading, meditating, and practicing silence. My internal loudness is like a football game when I close my eyes. But I keep coming back, and even though God seems very quiet in my life right now, I just keep trying to quiet the other voices so I can receive and practice being in his presence.
Not gonna lie. It’s been hard. But I keep coming back. I keep waking up early. My morning routine looks and feels a little different but I’m thankful that God will meet me as I am. Even in this place. He’s super creative and very persistent. I’m thankful for that too, because I can be pretty stubborn and at times am prone to running.
But I know he’s got his running shoes on and he’s up for the chase, because that’s the kind of God I believe in.
I can RELATE. Thank you for sharing this timely and transparent blog! Even though I don’t have the kid routine thing going on and I’m used to working from home my day at work has changed and it’s slow , and I’m a girl that likes to keep things moving! Thankfully we serve a God who knows us and how we tick. He sees your heart Erica! Love you! Keep being you!
Thank you Erica. You have a great way of saying what I have been feeling. God Bless you and your family ♥️
Great message that most of us can relate to especially now. God never ever fails us, He is always for us! God bless you Erica for sharing this message.
Love, love, love this post! I think you’re an amazing mom and very organized. I wasn’t. LOL