Toward the end of my day I start to feel pretty exhausted. After running the kids around from school to school, shuffling multiple children in and out of the house, the car, the bathrooms, parking lots… etc., etc., there comes a point in my day where I physically, emotionally and mentally need a break.
Between refereeing between my 7 year old, 5 year old, and 3 year old, re-repeating the same instructions for days, wiping butts, cleaning dishes, doing laundry, and cooking and preparing snacks non stop, I just seem to reach a boiling point everyday where I need a break – which I don’t take usually- because the constant stream of demands never actually stops and to be quite honest, I get caught up in it.
Within the busyness I’ve learned to cope. Through the years my coping mechanisms have varied and vacillated- nothing really “sinful” (haha) a glass of wine or a little self pity I must admit but nothing terrible and jaw dropping.
Sunday when I was in worship at church I was singing that song “King of My Heart” and during the part where we all sang:
You are good,
You are good
You’re never gonna let,
never gonna let me down
I felt kinda like the Lord tapped me on the shoulder and said “Hey. I’m never gonna let you down”. I realized in that moment- He wants to be my coping mechanism. Honestly I had sort of a free fall kind of feeling when I realized what He was saying to me.
It’s hard to imagine what it looks like for God to help when at times I think of God as an invisible supernatural being. Which is silly because I know first hand how he can -and will- use anything to meet me. So I believe He’s asked me to trust Him and to take this week to fast so I’m going to trust and obey and see what happens. Eek.
What about you? Is God asking you to trust him?
Matthew 6:26,33
26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?
33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.
I needed this today. Yes God is asking me to trust Him, and have faith and listen to Him by being obedient. This world picks us up and carries us away and its so easy to get lost in the day to day grind. I need to remember to seek Him first in everything.
In Jesus Name,
Kelley
I hear you.
I love Brennan Manning’s stuff on trust.
Perfect for me this week as well!!
Thanks for your honesty and the reminder to trust in God.
Trust–constantly, for so many things. Thankfully He reminds me often–just like your blog did. 🙂