You Are Stronger Than You Know

I recently had a birthday. Not a huge one, but it was still a great day. Well honestly, any day that I get presents is a good day! The next day was awful, and the following was even worse. I spent so much time crying, and just feeling grumpy. Nothing was done. Why is it that after a big event passes there is that fall back……that let down. I realized that things were not exactly, as I would have liked them to be.

I have come to realize that when this happens (to me )it is often a spiritual attack. I know this because I never feel bad during the event. I had a great time on my birthday; really, the whole day was pretty awesome. I would even say one of my best birthdays so far, but after is when I start just not feeling right. Then something will happen, that is not a big deal, but it feels like a big deal. This time I was contemplating major actions to right this wrong that I had felt. I did not follow through, because I have made a promise to myself not to make choices purely on emotions. When a very amazing person put things into perspective for me, she said that the Devil only attacked areas where I am strong, areas where God is planning to use me the most….

Wow, that stopped me in my tracks. As I let that sink in, it completely changed my perspective on the feelings I was feeling, stinking feelings! Actions that would have been nothing but selfish I had tried to justify because of the way I was feeling, but they were just that selfish. When I remembered that I was in a battle against a very cunning and manipulative opponent, I put my armor on and pulled out some heavy firepower.

When I was stuck feeling isolated, all I wanted to do was be isolated. I did not want to deal with other people. Being alone is a soul issue. Never a good thing! When we start to feel like all we want is to be alone, that is when we need people the most! I was stuck in my viewpoint, and I needed God. I needed him and he came…..through another person. A few simple words from the right person brought me to joyful tears. Tears of light and knowledge, I was looking only at the floor and he opened a window. Not only do I not need to right some wrong, but also I now understand my strength. It does not look the way I thought it would but few things do. God empowers, and the devil only attacks where we are strong. So take faith if you are feeling like you are under attack, because you only feel that way because you are stronger than you know!

Love, Jenny