It’s the start of a new year. Resolutions are floating around our heads like happy rubber duckies on Ernie’s bathtub water. So I thought I’d share one of my New Year resolutions for 2019: conviction!
Conviction is an unwavering belief that produces relentless determination (according to Madame Stine’s Royal Book of Definitions.) It’s a strong force that propels you to act and speak in a certain manner. In other words: Conviction is awesome!
For longer than I’d care to admit (so I won’t) I flew about life like a busy bee. I strove to walk with Christ in the middle of my business but felt like a hypocrite. Gone were the light that once brightened my eyes, the joy that filled me with laughter, the urgency to share my faith any chance I got and in a manner that flowed so organically, so not forced, so filled with… conviction.
And when I prayed, I believed. Not so much because I was just a young girl, filled with youth’s passionate zeal, but because I had fallen in love with Jesus. And because of the incredible love I felt, I couldn’t help but tell others about my amazing Savior.
But then, with the passing of time and the constant burden of responsibility weighing down my every step, passion waned, entusiasm ceased, faith became something to hang on to for dear life, and joy became almost nonexistent.
I longed to get back to the kind of walk I once so wholeheartedly enjoyed… But how?
I thank Jesus for the vestiges of faith and understanding that lead me to pray for what I no longer had: relentless conviction!
Thank God Almighty, He answered my prayer. Slowly but surely, the zeal, the passion, the honest desire and determination to share His love with others — in any way and at any time I can — have come back with a vengeance. And when I pray, I rejoice! Because I know, even when doubt tries to steal the best of me, He will hear me.
So I’m starting this year with a fiery determination to deepen my knowledge of God and to grow my conviction as a result. For the more I know Him for who He really is, the more I see his holy hand at work and the deeper my conviction becomes.
So how about that for a resolution?