Power-less

Have you ever felt like your connection to God has fizzed out? Like the plug got pulled, or a fuse blew, and you are trying to run on your own energy? Recently, I had slowly begun running on my own power. It wasn’t as noticeable as flipping a switch. It happened gradually, in fact, so slowly that I didn’t even realize it was happening. If I had to put a time frame on it, I would say that my batteries were running low for about 2 months.

What began this season of less power? It was a bit of disobedience with an air of rebellion and a dash of laziness. I had slowly begun to set aside my time with God. I allowed the importance of communing with Him be overshadowed by life. Sometimes it was the baby crying, or the meeting I had to attend, or checking email, or Facebook, or cooking dinner, or talking on the phone. The ways are truly countless.

So what would have been time set aside with the Bible, or devotions, in prayer, or worship slowly became fleeting moments when I would throw up a desperate cry for help. Life kept going at a frantic pace, and before long, I was barely able to keep anything close to a positive outlook. And just when I got to the point where I have to submit and seek God, the enemy started speaking of how God was disappointed in me, and that I was not worthy of Him, and anything else he could drop into my mind to throw me off course.

Lies. They were all lies. But they were convincing. To the point where I felt like my connection with God was not there – or I was not able to hear Him. I can almost associate with David as he wrote, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me? Why are you so far from saving me, so far from my cries of anguish?” Psalm 22:1

The truth is that God is always there, faithfully waiting and willing to fill me up. It can take as little as 2 minutes and can sometimes take hours, but feel like no time at all. What is most important is that I take the time.

Lately, I have been practicing a simple exercise suggested by my pastor. I close my eyes and start speaking words out loud that define the character of our Lord. I do this several times a day and I believe that my simple act of worship sets my mind and my heart right before Him. Sometimes it begins and ends there. Other times it becomes moments of revelation. I always feel re-energized after. My day goes on and things seem to fall into place because I am not trying to run the show.

How do you connect with God? Please share your favorite.

 

Blessings,

Kathy

One thought on “Power-less”

  1. I can relate! Thanks for the idea with that exercise you mentioned. Yesterday I borrowed my mom’s car and she had a CD in of old hymns. I grew up listening to them but don’t usually listen to them currently. It was a nice surprise and a sweet time when I connected with God. 🙂

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