The passion in the young man’s voice almost moved me to tears. “No man who’s come in contact with the Spirit of God can ever be the same.” I was touched by the excitement and conviction, as he read out loud a portion from Smith Wigglesworth’s classic devotional book.
Joey read while I hastily fixed breakfast for him, my son and my other young guest.
My family, like several in our congregation, is hosting a couple of out-of-state guests who came to the Pastors and Leaders Conference that is being held this week at Vineyard Church of North Phoenix.
This morning, Joey sat on the breakfast table, opened up the well-worn book by Wigglesworth, and began to read. I paused for a second, feeling a little sad.
That was me, I thought, 20 years ago. Where has my passion gone?
I pictured myself as a young teenager and a new believer, on fire for God. I had so many dreams and aspirations, so much I wanted to do for the Lord! But here I was, two decades later, scrambling eggs and in a hurry, like I usually am. Had to take the boys to church before 9 o’clock. Had to throw a load of laundry in the washer. Had to shake a leg, or I’d be late for work.
The old dreams are still there, but so are a pile of bills that need to be paid.
Don’t take me wrong; I haven’t stopped loving Jesus. And by sheer grace, I’m still serving Him, but in a manner that’s nowhere near the way I once thought I would. I wanted to do great things for God; I wanted to change the world.
And I still do, but my reality demands that much of my time and energy be devoted to menial tasks at home, countless hours driving my children from activity to activity, and a secular job that I love and I’m grateful for – but none of this is spectacular, highly spiritual or groundbreaking. That’s for sure.
I managed to leave the house and drop the boys to church on time. On my way to work I thought about all of this, and I prayed:
“Lord, you knew how much I wanted to serve You. You knew I wanted to make a difference in people’s lives. I am grateful for the way my life has turned out, but I can’t help wondering if I was supposed to do more.”
The sky didn’t open up filling the air with blinding light and loud organ music, nor did thunder split the freeway in two. But I got my answer.
I started thinking about our culture’s idea of greatness. We think that “successful” people are those who manage to accomplish “great” things. And by “great”, we mean big and profitable and somehow illustrious or brilliant.
“You are making a difference,” my sweet Lord responded, “by being faithful with the things I’ve called you to accomplish.”
That’s all?
Yes. That’s all, and that’s it!
I can do “great” things when I let God do His work through me – however small or insignificant it may seem. If I do that, and you do that, and my husband does that, and so does everyone who calls Jesus Lord, we can definitely change the world!
Few of us will ever preach to the masses or hold a full-time position in ministry or work as missionaries in a different country. But we can all do our part. And our part can change people’s lives.
How many of you have been changed by a “regular” person’s kindness, prayers, or words of encouragement and wisdom? How many of you came to know the Lord by a simple invitation to church or the testimony of a co-worker or a friend?
I have.
So, as of this morning while commuting on the freeway, I’ve determined that never again will I underestimate the powerful work God can do through a life that is willing. And I don’t ever want the world’s expectations or my own define greatness and the value of my ministry.
I must always remember what an honor it is to serve Jesus. Even if I only get to do it in between scrambling eggs, loads of laundry, translating a document into Spanish or driving kids to and from football practice.
Working together for Him,
Ana
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