Do you ever catch yourself pondering the question of “why”? Not “why me?” or “why then?” or “why Uncle Freddy?” but just “why” – the reason behind certain things.
I do. I wonder why sometimes God doesn’t seem to answer my prayers; why people I love – good people – get sick and can’t seem to get better; why my husband and I work so hard, yet it feels like we can never get ahead.
I do believe that “all things work together for good to them that love God” (Romans 8:28) and that His ways are higher than mine (Isaiah 55:9). I find great comfort in those principles.
Yet the relentless question won’t let me be… Why?
Seems that as I get older and as times get tougher, the question will continue to trouble me ceaselessly. But last week the Lord sent me a simple but meaningful message: A shinny silver lining (sort of) in the form of a gray pit bull.
I am referring to my beloved dog, Roko. You see, Roko is a highly intelligent dog. (He chases his own tail and likes to sniff other dog’s butts, but – trust me – he is very smart.) However, every time we turn on the bathroom light, Roko goes nuts, chasing the shadows projected on the wall and yowling pitifully, “Ouuuuuuu!” as he wrestles with the ever-elusive shadows he will never catch.
It is so painful to hear my doggie wail like that, the other night I wanted to grab him by the collar and drag his face to the light switch, and turn it on and off, to make him understand – somehow – what was really going on. But the effort would’ve been futile, because he’ll never understand.
Just like me, at times.
Author Marybeth Whalen said, “As we move through these uncertain times, it’s normal to question many things. Some of us might be questioning God right now – wondering where He is in all of this and whether He cares enough to intervene? Our questions can lead us away from God, or they can turn us closer to Him as we seek His will.”
I guess my questions and doubts are not so bad after all. God can even use them to draw me closer to Him! The trick, I guess, lays in trust. To trust that, even though I might never understand certain things, I can still rest in His never-ending care.
I get that.
How do you settle the question of “why”?